You know how in the game Rising Star 2 you have Attitudes and one of them is Depression?
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Lyrics
I feel like I'm floating
And the world just goes by
I tried many ways of coping
But nothing really works for my
Mind
I wanna feel something
Some connection to the world,
But I feel like I'm on a spaceship
That lost its course
Cause it's hard to drag myself
Out of the abyss and into hell
And every time I see
the pretty lights
They remind me of the darkness
That I carry inside
I'll do it every time
I won't pretend that I was fine
We all have our own bad place
And I'll conquer mine
I can feel the world turning
But sometimes, I don't turn too
I see a thousand fires burning
"Oh but it doesn't affect you"
I'm tired of explaining
That my brain doesn't work like that
'cause there are no sweet dreams here
And everything is fucked
And it's hard to drag myself
Out of the abyss and into hell
And every day I see
the pretty lights
They remind me of the darkness
That I carry inside
I'll do it every time
I won't pretend that I was fine
We all have our own bad place
And I'll conquer mine
(Conquer mine)
(Conquer mine)
(Conquer mine)
(Conquer mine)
(Conquer mine)
(Conquer mine)
And it's hard to drag myself
Out of the abyss and into hell
And every day I see
the pretty lights
They remind me of the darkness
That I carry inside
I'll do it every time
I won't pretend that I was fine
We all have our own bad place
And I'll conquer mine
Trivia
This is the first song I released on The Platforms where I used my DIY Eurorack modules - two Misguided SSI2131 VCOs going into an early version of the Misguided Mx JFET filter. This was used for one layer of the bassline, lead melodies, and filter sweep effects.
A lot of the other sounds came from my Microfreak, including some drums, another layer of the bassline, and the organ heard in the choruses and the bridge section. The drum samples are often a combination of several Microfreak patches, recordings I made myself, and a couple of TR-909 kick samples.
The phone line samples were recorded while I was self-isolating - I figured I might as well get some mileage out of the structures the government put in place. They're recording the calls on their end anyway.